I haven't posted in a while because at first we were in the whirlwind last few weeks of my pregnancy. Lots to do to get ready for family coming and baby being born. Hospital bags to pack, etc etc. Then my due date came and I haven't posted because the baby decided never to come.
I am currently 12 days overdue and scheduled for an induction on Friday at 42 weeks if she doesn't come in the next two days on her own. As you can imagine, I have felt a cocktail of emotions about being this late. Mostly they tend to move my mood up and down and then down and up a little and then down a lot etc etc. My graph of emotions would probably point mostly down with a few spikes of "Baby just isn't ready" or "in the Lord's timing" where I can manage a little more patience.
I don't like the idea of being induced because I try to eat, live etc in such a way that my body can go through its natural ways when it feels like it. I like to know that I am not giving myself artificial hormones that might affect the way my body works or is supposed to work. With exception to having to take thyroid medicine - I am pretty good at this. I don't like the idea of forcing my body to anything. But having my options taken away in such a way has not been as anxiety ridden as I thought it might be. Only because I know the risks to me and the baby sort of spike after 42 weeks. Otherwise I would not agree.
It seems ridiculous to me every morning when I wake up and I am still pregnant. Almost like it is a really bad dream. I even worked out the math with Andrew. I have been pregnant for over 3 years total with all my kids put together. Since I am not yet 30 - that is more than 10% of my life. So I've paid my tithing right? Sigh. Come on Baby Elsie!
15 years ago
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That is torture. I am so sorry. I am at my 37 week mark and I feel so ready too. 2 weeks over due would just be awful. I totally get the emotional ups and downs. I have those at 37 weeks. Oh the joys of pregnancy. You just have to keep saying to yourself, a week from today I will have a baby in my arms and not in my belly. Can't wait to see pictures.
iv had all of these same feelings running through my head. I'v been pregnant for almost four years of my life. Then if we add nursing to that, it goes up to 10 years. Crazy! I too don't like the idea of being induced, but i also wake up every morning wondering how I am still pregnant. I am glad she finally came, I hope you are doing well!
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