Thankful Thursday

I am thankful for my blog where I can express my feelings and have a place to channel my thoughts.

I have a had a lot to think about today.  It seems like I only have to blink and Ruby learns a new trick.  She is so clever and surprises us everyday.  Just yesterday she learned how to crawl up a step.  There goes my step down living room playpen at home.  Then today she learned how to pull herself up to stand at the couch.  This is the beginning of the end of babydom.  It actually makes me a bit sad since I really wouldn't have minded if she didn't learn to crawl until she was 10 months or later.  I feel like I am loosing my time with her as a baby way to quickly.  Once a baby learns to stand up and then walk, they grow up and walk out the door to kindergarten.  Speaking of which - my oldest is going to kindergarten next month.  I wish I could pause time and hold them at their ages to enjoy them a bit more.  Every parent who has grown kids always say when remembering these years that they went by so quickly and they do.  They also say how glad they are that they are past these years because they are tough.  I don't want to get past these years.  I want my kids to stay little.  Little enough to grab their toes and pretend to eat them til they laugh.  Little enough to agree when I ask them to come and snuggle next to me on the couch.  Little enough to still call me Mommy and not Mom.  I don't want punk pre-teens or hormone riddled teenagers.  I don't want kids with boyfriends or girlfriends or stupidfriends.  I feel like I already miss my kids' childhood.  Everyday is aging Ruby by like weeks because she is learning so quickly.  I'm glad that she is healthy and active.  I am thankful for that.  But after such a long hard pregnancy I just want to have a baby for a long while.  Did I mention she is getting a toother?  Yeah.  Awesome.  Just what I was hoping for - loosing my favorite toothless grin.  The funny part is she is getting one of the top side teeth in first instead of the bottom middle ones like most babies just like her brother did and just like his father before him.  At least she is trading in her toothless grin for a goofy hillbilly one with teeth on the side.

Andy has been gone this week from me too.  He left back to OH on Saturday to get back to work.  I have remained in CO for another two weeks to visit longer with my family.  I have missed him and the longer I am away from him (and this is the longest it has ever been since we married) the more I find he is my recharger.  When I am worn out from the kids or from other stresses, just being with him makes me happy, recharged and ready again.  I like being with him and even if we are not doing the same thing its nice to be near each other.  I miss him.  I'm lucky to have him because there isn't anyone else I could be happy with.  He suits me just fine.  

Well my baby is crying now.  Guess this all the time I've got today.  Hug you babies and hug you hubbies people.