I feel particularly disconnected from the world right now. I got very little sleep last night due to Ruby's choice to be inconsolable for about 3 hours last night from 1-4 AM. I've got that tingling nerve feeling all up my arms from exhaustion and I am wishing I hadn't gotten to bed after 11:30. I'm not sure what to do with this situation. Recently she has switched from sleeping entirely through the night from 8-6 to waking up somewhere before 3 and crying hysterically. I wonder if she is having stranger anxiety like episodes where she wakes up and then gets afraid that we are not there. Though during the day she doesn't seem to have any problem with other people holding her. I just don't know. My inability to think around the problem is probably due to the road trip back into Lackofsleepville. Andy, who is usually dead to the world of baby sounds at night has even been waking up to her screams.
In another area, I am seriously lacking motivation on my goal for 150 Miles to Zion - where I am trying to run 150 miles before December 31st. I haven't lost any weight from it and even though that was never my "goal" in it - I think it could help booster my motivation right now if it were happening. I am about 1/3rd of the way through my miles and every time its my "run" day I feel like I am trying to tread through syrup to get my limbs to even attempt doing exercise. It could be better if I could just taste the syrup not just feel it - then you know it would be like a sugar boost. :)
Anyway, it is Thankful Thursday and these are the things on my mind. I want to think of something positive about either one of these that I can be thankful for. So here goes with the Ruby issue. I am thankful my other daughter Corilynn has a twin bed that is huge for her that I can take a spare pillow and lay on it in the middle of the night when Screamfest 2010 stops and starts up. And about my running: I am thankful that I have a good sports bra. There that is all I can muster at present for that.
15 years ago
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I'm sorry your disappointed. It's rough dealing with a screaming baby in the middle of the night. As far as running goes... I understand. I've had to find other ways to exercise that allow for some more fun. Is there someone in your ward you can run with? I've started running with some friends in the morning and it's so much more fun! I actually LIKE getting up at 6:00 to go for a run. Good luck. I'll try to call today and we can chat about it.
Oh sleep makes all the difference in the world. I am sure once you get more, you will feel more like running too. They go hand in hand. Being a parent means so many sacrifices, but we get a lot of blessings in return that we would never know. I hope she starts sleeping more for you, it is hard to back track!
teething? I have heard that teeth can start to come up, go back down and do that little peekaboo game for awhile and make you insane. Who knows. Lets just hope it ends soon! With running, you have to figure out how to enjoy it. Cause your right, weight loss is just a plus but that won't get you to do it. Do you have music you can listen to while you run that helps, or a conference talk or something uplifting. Go with a friend, that will help! You can do it!
Oh no, Karl! Don't give up. When you're in CO, Uncle Webber can babysit and we can go for runs together any morning you want. Or you can nap while we hang out with them, and then we'll run after you're rested. I'm extra slow, though!
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