The neatest thing (possibly the only really cool thing) about a first trimester of pregnancy is that you can feel the creative processes changing inside you and that if you pay attention you can notice the little personality and spirit of that developing baby occasionally nearby. Its fun to get to know that spirit and love it. By the end of the pregnancy it is so familiar that it just seems to be part of you - of course inside that baby.
I was realizing the other day that I remember telling some of my friends and family during my last pregnancy (the one that ended in miscarriage) that I was having a hard time feeling connected with the baby and that it was like I didn't feel his/her personality or spirit near any. When I miscarried and then found out that it was a blighted ovum (that is where everything: placenta, gestational sac etc develops but not the fetal pole and eventual fetus) it sort of made sense. I didn't feel a the spirit of the little one being created because there wasn't one since there was no body being developed.
What do you think? Does this make sense to any of you? Just thinking...
15 years ago
2 Comments:
I fully agree with you. I had a miscarriage about a month ago and the same thing feelings. Although the pregnancy was planned something just didn't feel right. I was only 12 weeks along but something still didn't feel right. So I agree with you 100%
it makes sense. It still breaks my heart to think about everything you had to go through.
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